My very first post on this blog was a book review of the book 'The Lost World' by Michael Crichton. And I thought I will review a lot of books on my blog going forward. But that never happened. As a matter of fact, I didn't blog that much. But that doesn't matter to me, what does matter is that I have lost appetite to read books altogether.
In last 3 years, I have left so many books unread including Shantaram ... Brothers Kamakazy ... War and Peace. It took me 1 year to complete 'Shalimar, The Clown'. The last book that I read completely.
I recently attended a play by BollyWood actors called 'The Blue Mug'. The structure of the play was that the actors were recounting some of their most fond memories of their life. And as was the intention, the audience was able to relate to most of them. But my favorite part was when Vinay Pathak said something like this:
"When I was young, I used to read books .. all types of books .. mystery, romance, thriller sci-fi .. and all the authors .. (and then he names some of his favorite authors). But now .. now I can't read any book .. I just read 5 pages and that's it .. I can't go beyond the fifth page. I don't know why .. but I miss reading books .. it is as if I have lost some important part of my life"
And that's the case with me. I don't know the reason why. But I know that it's just not me.
I don't miss all the music cassettes I owned, because I still listen to those songs on my ipod. I don't miss those daily newspaper either, I still follow the news online. I don't miss my cricket bat, I was never a good batsman any ways. But I do miss those nights .. when I will have to complete that novel to know who was the murderer .. or those days .. when I will miss classes to complete The Lord of the Rings .. so that I can study during Exams.
But alas, that is 'The Lost World' for me now :(
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Monday, April 05, 2010
Nature sucks ..
When I look outside my window, I am full of hatred and I am full of jealousy
Because I am so insignificant and am so weak, one of the Nature's major fallacy
That tree I hate the most for being so tall and for being God's best invention
And because it is always close to his mother, with that umbilical root connection
It remains steadfast in all the seasons, where did it learn to be so gracious?
It Stands naked in that Autumn sun, does it never feel self conscious?
Even in it's death, that tree will get it's final victory
When it's wood will be used for burning up my useless dead body
and then I see that excited creek, looks like a girl that just reached puberty
Reminding me of the time when I was in love, why does it have to poke my history?
She know she will merge into the big river, but still no crisis of identity.
But the reason I envy her most is for she at least knows that what is her destiny.
And look at that blooming flower, where did it get such erotic fragrance?
Look at the colors and look at it's beauty and yet no trace of arrogance
I even envy that bird, because God gave her wings to fly
and for the songs it can sing without ever being shy
The view outside my window is so depressing, I feel I am eventually gonna crack.
Better to switch on my TV and follow the news of yet another suicide attack.
- Atul
Because I am so insignificant and am so weak, one of the Nature's major fallacy
That tree I hate the most for being so tall and for being God's best invention
And because it is always close to his mother, with that umbilical root connection
It remains steadfast in all the seasons, where did it learn to be so gracious?
It Stands naked in that Autumn sun, does it never feel self conscious?
Even in it's death, that tree will get it's final victory
When it's wood will be used for burning up my useless dead body
and then I see that excited creek, looks like a girl that just reached puberty
Reminding me of the time when I was in love, why does it have to poke my history?
She know she will merge into the big river, but still no crisis of identity.
But the reason I envy her most is for she at least knows that what is her destiny.
And look at that blooming flower, where did it get such erotic fragrance?
Look at the colors and look at it's beauty and yet no trace of arrogance
I even envy that bird, because God gave her wings to fly
and for the songs it can sing without ever being shy
The view outside my window is so depressing, I feel I am eventually gonna crack.
Better to switch on my TV and follow the news of yet another suicide attack.
- Atul
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Haiti earthquake ..
Some of the thoughts going on in my head right now ....
# Why did I kept on watching the news of the earthquake to see how many people died? I don't know if I have become a news freak or if I am a sadist ..
# Why does God have to cause such natural disasters? Is he trying to send me some message? As if he is trying to tell me "Dude, why do you worry so much? I can end all your worries in a jiffy with one tremble of a rock. And why do you plan so much when I have not even decided if you'll be alive tomorrow."
Hey God, was it worth killing thousands of people just to deliver this message?
# Gautam Buddha got enlightenment by looking at a single dead body, how many dead bodies do I have to see before I'll be enlightened?
# I just donated 100 $ for the relief fund. But now I am feeling guilty of not making that 200. I am sure I would have felt guilty even then.
# Even when I feel guilty of donating less, I feel this certain smugness of ACTUALLY donating something. I don't know how to get rid of it.
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